The feeling I have sitting here beside my dad’s hospital bed at 1:23 in the morning, just watching him stare into space, is oddly unsettling. So I open my laptop to write this post..

To those who don’t know — my dad was rushed to the hospital again two Sundays ago (I’ll save the details of that traumatic day). From a private room here in Makati Medical Center, we had to move him to the ward three days ago because our hospital bill is getting higher by the minute. Needless to say, we can no longer afford it. But help is on its way!

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New Year, New Hope

Well, it’s 2009. Three more days and the two-week holiday vacation will be officially over. I’m already dreading all the tasks that await me at the office. [insert sad face here]

Pardon me for sounding like a pessimist, but lately I think I’ve become one. The past three weeks for me have been kinda hard. You know how I always say that I’m a sleepyhead? Well, I still am. Once asleep, I could stay still for hours. The only difference nowadays is when it’s time for bed, I can’t get myself to fall asleep. The reason is simple really, I am worrying about a lot of things that it’s keeping me up.

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Lizbeth and Randell

Liz and Randell Liz and Randell Liz and Randell

I’ve attended many weddings in the past, but only a few were successful in getting me all mushy as a Hallmark valentine. And Liz and Randell‘s wedding last December 11 at Archbishop’s Palace is one of those few.

Mae, Riz, Joni with Liz&Randell I love the church where they got married because it’s small, which made the wedding ceremony more solemn and sentimental, as opposed to those big churches that make everyone seem far away from each other.  While Mae and I were taking pictures of the couple, we can’t help but say “Awww” and imagine our own weddings someday. Hee. Their love for each other is inspiring.

Thank you, Liz, for inviting us to your wedding! Riz, Mae and I are so happy for you. Here’s to a lifetime of happiness for you and Randell! Stay in love. ♥

More photos here.

On Trust and Love

Trust is a delicate thing. Once it gets broken, it’s so hard to put the pieces back together again. One representation is dining at a new restaurant for the first time with zero expectations. Once you discover that the food is bad, there’s a good chance you will never go back there again. They normally only get one opportunity to prove their worth.

I wonder, is it possible for a person to love another who is close to him or her, but not to trust anymore?

For instance, I love my Dad and would do anything for him. But I can never trust him with money again. There’s a long story behind this statement — don’t worry, I won’t bore you with it. Let’s just say that when Dad gets a hold of some cash, Dad deposits it straight into the Casino. And Dad can’t be stopped!

I also have this friend that I’ve known for six years. One time, he borrowed money from me and he promised to pay me back immediately. Now it’s two years later and every time I ask him about it, he tells me that I really don’t need the money so why am I pressuring him to pay up? Then a few months ago, he bugged me to lend him some cash again. He said he’ll just return it after two weeks. Of course I’ve already learned my lesson, so I told him no. I love that friend of mine and I still enjoy hanging out with him, but I will never trust him again. Especially since he has also done this to two of my friends.

These two scenarios just happened to involve “money”, but the catalysts for failing someone’s trust could be anything: infidelity in a relationship, dishonesty between a parent and a child, betrayal between friends, slandering at the work place to get ahead, spreading gossips at church or school, deceit by an establishment or company to cause consumers to believe what is false, fraudulent behavior of an agent toward a client, false hopes given by an employer to an employee, and more.

So going back to my question, is it possible for a person to love another who is close to him or her, but not to trust anymore? I think it is. I love so many people close to me but not all of them I can trust.

I describe my weekend in Boracay as unique ultimately because I was ALONE in the trip. My partner in crime backed out at the last minute because she got sick. We were supposed to celebrate her birthday there last Friday. I could have just called off the whole trip but since my PAL Econolight fare, among other conditions, was…

3. Forfeited if ticket is unused.
4. Non-rebookable / Non-endorsable / Non-upgradable

… I decided to take the trip by myself. For soul-searching? LOL. It wasn’t that hard finding my way in Caticlan-Boracay as I only had to go with the flow of the crowd and ask around. I kept in mind to not act like a complete ignorant tourist lest some locals take advantage of me.

I stayed at Isla Gecko Resort where Sarah reserved us a room. Their wifi service was not so good so I still had to resort to using Smart 3g to connect to the web. On my first night in Boracay, I just stayed in the hotel room because it was too dark and I didn’t know my way to the beach yet. Isla Gecko is a minute-walk to and from the beach.

Isla Gecko Resort

The next morning, I walked to the beach, basked in the beauty of nature, and took some pictures. The white sand was nice, but as far as beaches go, I’ve seen better. I called my best friend to ask her what’s there to do in Bora, aside from clubbing and drinking (which I’m not into), and she suggested island hopping. A few minutes later, a local approached me and offered that I come with them, plus 3 other guests that are also from Manila, on an island hopping trip.

Boracay

Boracay

Boracay

On the way to the crocodile island, the waves got bigger and the wind stronger, so the boat owner had to turn back and stop at this food establishment called Calirojan, near the Jetty port. As we waited, my companions had their lunch while I sat in one corner and ordered a Coke Light. I’ve almost finished off the contents of the can before I realized there was something wrong with the cola’s taste. I turned the can over and found out that it was past its Best Before date! I told the store owner about the expired Coke, but he was indifferent. I think he already knew about it.

Calirojan in Boracay

The island hopping trip was an epic fail. We didn’t drop by the islands as planned but only sailed around two islands and went back to Station 1. I made a few friends, though. There’s this girl from Pasig City who’s staying in Bora for a month or maybe longer. The reason? After she had a big fight with her family, she shaved her head bald and traveled to Bora by herself. She’ll be coming back home only if her hair is long enough so her family wouldn’t suspect anything. Haha.

That night, I walked some more around Station 2 and took some more pictures. Boracay is so alive at night, it’s like a small city sitting on a beach. I was disappointed though, because everything in Bora is expensive. Even the medicine at the drug store!

Night in Bora

Night in Bora

I woke up the next day and had my breakfast before going to the beach again and do some nature- and people-watching. A few minutes later, a local lady, Ate Ainee, who was also with us on that “island hopping trip” saw me sitting alone and came to talk to me. All in all, I was asked six times by six different people why I was in Bora by myself. And all six of them had to rub it in my face by telling me “that Boracay is no fun if you’re with nobody.” I agree with them, but I really didn’t mind.

Boracay

Anyway, back to Ate Ainee. She offered to take me on an ATV ride to the top of the mountain for only P500. Compared to the other activities in Bora, such as Parasailing, Banana Boat, Sea Tour Helmet, Jetskiing, which all cost P1300 or more, the ATV ride was cheap. With nothing else to do on the island, I agreed to go with her.

ATV ride

As it turns out, the ATV ride became the highlight of my trip! While everyone was tuned in to their televisions watching the DeLa Hoya-Pacquiao fight, I was driving toward the peak of Mt. Luho, the highest mountain in the island of Boracay (which was really not that high), overlooking the beaches, the sea, the golf course and meadow, and the luxury hotels. I loved the exhilarating feeling I got from driving that ATV!

Atop Mt. Luho, right side

Atop Mt. Luho, right side

After that mountaintop experience, I went back to Isla Gecko to pack my bags and head to Caticlan. My return flight with PAL was in Kalibo, Aklan since that’s the cheapest one Sarah and I could fine online two weeks ago (yep, cheaper than Cebu Pacific or Seair). The travel to Kalibo, aboard an L300, took more or less 90 minutes.

By 7:00pm of Sunday, I was back in Manila. The Boracay trip was quick, and it was kinda lonely, but I enjoyed it nonetheless. I’m definitely coming back to give that ATV a go again. And probably try Parasailing too. It looked pretty exciting from where I was standing!

I didn’t get anything back as souvenir from Bora except a shirt and a sando for Deej. And also, a flu. I think I caught it from that cleaning lady at the hotel. *sniff*

More photos here!

My friend Rita, who just celebrated her first blog anniversary, showed me this funny spoof of Twilight’s book cover. LOL.

Toilet/Twilight
Image Credit: marcodelatorre

While it’s true that I called myself a fan of Stephenie Meyer’s best-selling saga a couple of times before, I am not offended every time I read a bad review about it. Truth is, I also have my own set of negative opinions of the Twilight series, especially when it comes to the “values” it teaches. I don’t, of course, think that I am actually that naive to be influenced by it, I just wish the kids who read it are smart enough to distinguish right from wrong. For one, giving up everything (your life, your youth, your family, your parents’ trust, academics, opportunities, among others) for that seemingly perfect guy (vampire or otherwise!) is severely frowned upon. Come on Bella, aren’t you supposed to be the strong, independent one?

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It’s a Wednesday night and I’m sitting here inside Seattle’s Best Coffee in Bonifacio High Street hoping I could do some work tonight (and maybe write a blog entry which, thankfully, I am doing now) because the intermittent Internet connection at home is being a pain again. I’m not gonna explain why I haven’t blogged in 4 weeks because I find it pathetic every time I do that (I don’t think anyone cares about those reasons really). Instead, I’m going to blog about the crappy service I just got here in SBC.

Normally, when I’m here in Bonifacio High Street with my laptop, I go straight to Bo’s Coffee, which, in my opinion, is the epitome of an ideal coffee shop/hotspot. I’ve been going there for close to a year, but tonight, it just so happened that I parked my car at the parking area near Serendra, which is at the opposite side from where Bo’s Coffee is located. So on the way to Bo’s, I passed by Seattle’s Best Coffee and thought to myself, “Why don’t I try this place for a change?”

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I forgot to tell the waiter, who took this shot, to <em>half-press</em> first, thus the blur.

I forgot to tell the waiter, who took this shot, to half-press first, thus the blur. ^_^

I spent the whole day today with my family. In the photo above are my parents, my brothers Jec and Jem, Sharon, Che-che, Deej, and me. This kind of gathering doesn’t happen everyday so I thought of preserving it using my camera and posting the photos here (plus, I really really want to update this blog because it’s a Saturday night and I got nothing else to do). We had lunch today at Pier One, Global City.

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Close Call

The past couple of weeks are just unbelievably crazy for me.  Sales are slow at my full-time job which is why I had to work doubly hard to reach our quota — but to no avail, really.  We had to resort to making major changes in our websites, especially by bringing down the prices of our products to attract buyers.  I’m inclined to blame the dwindling U.S. economy.

At home, we’re also having problems.  My dad is being a pain again, as he has been for as long as I can remember.  I love my dad, but when will the madness stop??  More on this some other day.

As if these two problems aren’t enough, last night I did something that I regretted tremendously.  When that software upgrade icon showed up on my MBP‘s screen, I absentmindedly clicked ‘yes’ — not knowing that the upgrade process will take so long!  I got impatient after about 20 minutes, so I pressed the power button down to shut the laptop off.  When I turned it on again, the screen got stuck on the page where there’s an Apple logo in the center and a loading icon below it.  Even after almost an hour of waiting, it still won’t boot properly.  Of course, by then, I was already panicking.  I may know some stuff about computers, but when it comes to hardware stuff, I’m a big dummy.

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My Choice

The Philippine Blog Awards is gonna raffle off a brand-new Nokia N82? And all I gotta do is vote for a blog vying for the Bloggers’ Choice Award to get a chance to win it? Why didn’t you say so in the first place? :P

Here’s my vote. Because I am a visual person and the first thing that attracts me to a blog is its aesthetics, I am voting for Octwelve. I’ve come across Luc Melgar’s blog a few times before since her portfolio is being featured on some well-known design sites I’m subscribed to. When I found out that it was a Filipina behind those awesome designs that’s being showcased alongside international projects, I felt proud. If she can do it, so can we! Only, I can’t. :(

It is blog designs like this one that makes me want to throw mine straight into the trash. And it is full-fledged freelance web designers like her who makes me want to give up my full-time job and fearlessly take on the Work-at-Home world. But, evidently, I’m still a looong way off, so I’m not gonna do that. Check out her rockin’ portfolio!

On a related note, the Philippine Blog Awards has opened 200 slots for bloggers who want to attend the Awards Night this Sunday. You may register here if you want a slot.

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